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3 WAYS A BOUDOIR SHOOT CAN HELP EVERY WOMAN

Self Love, Boudoir, GrowthMichelle Dorothea TuckerComment
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Most women view their body negatively. They think if they looked differently, that somehow then, their life would be better and they would be happier. This is why boudoir photography is so healing. There has to be a part of you that says fuck it, I embrace my body and I’m going to make time to shed my physical armor (clothing) and I’m going to celebrate by taking lasting images of her. I don’t need to wait to honor her. I will honor her now.

If your heart is open boudoir will transform you.

  1. If you think you need to lose weight or change your body to honor it, boudoir will shift you. Your external world is always a reflection of your inner world. You have to shift your inner being first. Learning to embrace your body as you are now and documenting these moments can be a catalyst for your change.

  2. You don’t think boudoir photography is important but it is. Boudoir is a tangible thing that will force you to face yourself. It’s exposing parts of you that you have kept hidden. It’s shifting the way you see yourself. It’s seeing yourself as whole. Boudoir is also discovering your sexuality. Sexual energy is one of the most powerful forces in the universe. Begin working with that energy and your whole world will open up. The cherry on top is that you walk away with tangible products that will continue to remind you of that transformative energy. It is very fucking powerful to wake up and to come home to a gigantic image of you looking strong, confident, and oozing sexuality.

  3. If you’re getting too comfortable in life and you miss that spark, boudoir can be just that. I know you’ve felt those moments, those glimpses into what life should feel like. You feel like you are floating, you have hope, you’re over-filled with joy. Those moments remind you of what life could be. Boudoir is definitely one of those moments because it boudoir is an act of self-love, of self-acceptance. It’s scary and it’s exciting. It’s ripe with opportunity for growth. It’s ignoring parts of you that you’ve kept hidden for most of your life. It’s stretching you out of your comfort zone and once you’ve experienced that you can’t go back to how you were before.

Imagine coming home. It’s been a long day and you’re tired. You take your shoes and bra off. You walk to the fridge and pour a glass of water, or wine, or whatever is your style. You walk by your living room and you see a massive 24x36 portrait of yourself. You stop and smile. In that moment you remember how much you love yourself. You remember that you make time for you, even when you feel like you don’t have any. You remember how much you deserve. You remember that you don’t settle. You remember that you are bigger than anything in the physical. You remember that you are being divinely guided. And you remember that you are exactly where you are meant to be. Seeing yourself takes you back to the time, you jumped.

Imagine coming home. It’s been a long day and you’re tired. You take your shoes and bra off. You walk to the fridge and pour a glass of water, or wine, or whatever is your style. You walk by your living room and you see a massive 24x36 portrait of yourself. You stop and smile. In that moment you remember how much you love yourself. You remember that you make time for you, even when you feel like you don’t have any. You remember how much you deserve. You remember that you don’t settle. You remember that you are bigger than anything in the physical. You remember that you are being divinely guided. And you remember that you are exactly where you are meant to be. Seeing yourself takes you back to the time, you jumped.

And this is just the beginning. Boudoir can help you with:

  • Body issues

  • Confidence

  • Healing trauma

  • Nudity hangups

  • Re-wiring your mind

  • Self-love

  • Sexual freedom

  • Strength

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WHY YOU DON’T NEED TO CHANGE A THING ABOUT YOU (INCLUDING LOSING WEIGHT) TO EXPERIENCE A KICK ASS BOUDOIR SHOOT.

Boudoir, Self Love, Healing, GrowthMichelle Dorothea TuckerComment

The number 1 rebuttal I hear from women interested in a boudoir shoot is that they need to lose weight first. And while I understand where they are coming from, I’m not at my ideal weight, let me tell you what I learned during my boudoir shoot.

A BOUDOIR EXPERIENCE WILL CHANGE THE WAY YOU SEE YOUR BODY My body does not look the way I would prefer it to look. I’ve realized that hating it is not the way to move through this. Learning to love all of myself while always striving to push myself forward is the healthiest way through this. Shedding your clothes in front of a camera, refusing to hide anymore, is you making a declaration to embrace and love ALL of you. This is how you begin to change the way you see yourself. It begins within.

IT DOESN’T MATTER WHAT YOUR BODY LOOKS LIKE I’ve been thin and I’ve been heavy and you know what? I felt unworthy in my own body both times. When I was thin I still saw myself as heavy and when I was heavy I saw myself as heavier. I love myself more than ever now and I am still not at my ideal weight but I’m happier. You know why? Because I’m taking steps every day to love ALL of me.

SOCIETAL STANDARDS OF BEAUTY IS A BUNCH OF BULL SHIT Throughout time the idea of beauty continues to change. If you see portraits of what was thought beautiful in the past and compare it to what is considered beautiful now you will see that the ideals vary. What does this mean? It means it is all bull shit. Don’t get lost in external and fleeting ideas of how you should look to please others. The only opinion that will ever matter is yours. Fuck everybody else’s.

When I finally received my boudoir images I must admit there were a few that I did not like. For the most part, I felt I looked heavier than I saw myself. I told my amazing photographer Teri Hofford and she told me something I will never forget. She said that I needed to spend time with the images that I did not like and learn to love them. I can honestly say I’m still working on falling in love with them but I definitely love them more than I did originally. Most of all I’ve learned how important it is to learn to love my body in a healthy way. In a matter of fact, if I think about the one thing that I’ve struggled with my whole life, it’s my body. And I know that once I fully move through this, I will be so much more powerful than I am now. Think about how far you and I can go, if we stopped hating something as big as our bodies? If we woke up and loved the skin we were in, trust me, we would move differently.

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WHAT MY FIRST BOUDOIR EXPERIENCE TAUGHT ME

Boudoir, Self Love, HealingMichelle Dorothea TuckerComment

A couple months ago, I found myself traveling south to San Diego. I had a beautiful experience visiting Coronado Island for the first time. I finished my trip at the amazing, Britt Scrips Inn. It is a restored home from 1887. As soon as I stepped into the bedroom, I thought I have to photograph here. For those of you that don't know the word boudoir derives from the french verb bouder, meaning to sulk. Boudoir became a room for a woman to retreat to and eventually came to mean her bedroom. If I've ever slept anywhere that made me feel like I was transported back in time to a boudoir, this room would be it. As I looked at myself through the mirror of the vanity, I posed and posed to see what photographs would look like. I've never stayed in a home so old and beautiful. I told myself repeatedly, I will be shooting in this room.

Fast forward a few weeks later and a photographer that I followed online, Teri of Teri Hofford Photography posted that she was traveling and wanted to shoot while she was in San Diego. Mind you, I already knew of Teri and admired her vision and work. I jumped at the opportunity to shoot with her. I thought not only will I have the amazing experience of being in front of the lens but I'll be able to learn from her as well, from a photographer point of view. Now we didn't end up shooting at Britt Scrips but we were shooting in San Diego, which I definitely know I attracted.

The experience was interesting for me. I've been in front of the camera years ago, on stage, and in film so I'm fairly use to it. But as I said, that was many years ago. I felt fairly confident in my wardrobe but as we began to shoot, Teri told me to deep breathe with my mouth open. I could feel my lips tremble. My knee jerk reaction was to focus on being sexy but the experienced will tell you, that is exactly what you should not do. I kept telling myself to focus on my breath and the trembling eventually stopped. For the remainder of the shoot, I focused on my breath and feeling my body. I stayed with my body and really felt the softness of my skin.

It turns out for me, the most difficult part of the entire experience was not shooting but in fact, viewing my images. There were definitely ones that I loved and ones that I did not like at all. The few where I looked heavier were the ones I didn't like. But it was weird because after a few minutes I had the overwhelming urge to post the ones I didn't like. I emailed Teri and told her what I was feeling and she said that I needed to really sit with the ones that I didn't care for. I needed to fall in love with them. She was so right! I needed to love all of me, not just the parts of me that fit society's standard of beauty.

I've never had an experience like this with my photographs. Normally, I see images mostly where I look bigger and they will never see the light of day. I've never thought twice about them. But not that day. That day I sat with them. Looking at them and eventually smiling with them, embracing every bit of me.

Did I post them? You bet your ass I did and I've posted them here as well. The first image you see below is the one I disliked the most. It is not a coincidence that you can read my ink that says, I love you. I got that ink during a difficult time and I wanted it as a reminder of self love to myself. I ended up, unknowingly putting it in a location where everyone can see it when I'm walking towards them. I always tell people if they can see it, I'm telling them I love them too. The universe is so utterly beautiful. It's always speaking to us, sometimes it shouts.

 

There was a freedom in posting the images I disliked. I realized that since I've gained weight over the past couple of years, I've tried to create this online persona where I had not gained weight. It wasn't something I was thinking about. Instead, it was something that was on autodrive. So many of us are on autodrive. It's time we stop and think, put a pause on things and slow down. Something else I realized months ago and I have not told one soul. I hold my stomach in. I don't know how long I've been subconsciously doing it. Years, I assume, shit, maybe my whole adult life. Isn't that mind boggling? At what point did I feel like I had to do that, so much that I did it on a subconscious level. I still do it now but I notice I catch myself doing it and I'll deep breathe and push my belly out to stop. That's just one way I was disliking myself everyday. How many of these am I doing?

It never crossed my mind that my real growth would be in the aftermath of my shoot. My experience with boudoir prompted me to discover more parts of me that needed healing and that's what self love is. It's continuing to discover all of these parts of you that have been hidden, waiting for the right moment to be brought into the light. Does it mean that I all of a sudden love myself fully, no it does not. But it does mean that I love more of me today than I did yesterday and that's the goal. I am grateful for that and for Teri.

Moral of the story, self love is an ongoing process. In every moment you are either moving in love or in fear and it all begins inside of you. You choose what you want to see in the world and that depends on what you choose to see within yourself. I'm just like you, on the same journey of self love. Some are still trying to find themselves, some are trying to find their career, a love, a meaning to life, and some are just trying to survive. But underneath all of that is the discovery of self love. We're all together in this. So stop judging yourself and stop judging others. Stop pulling yourself down and pulling down others. We're all the same, just all in different spaces and sometimes, sometimes we meet in the very same spot. And in that moment we have the opportunity to meet in love or in fear. I choose love. What do you choose?

These two images are my favorites and will be purchasing these as my Soulnaked Wall Art. I can't wait to come home to these beauties. I can't wait to come home to myself.

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