This is my first blog entry ever. I'm excited and fearful at the same time. But my love for myself is driving me forward. Cheers to being vulnerable! And thank you so much for being in this space and time with me. I am truly honored and thankful!
I've noticed in the past three years, pretty heavily, that I keep getting directed down a path that I know leads to my biggest dreams. I was fired a few mos. ago. It was my first time and boy did that shit sting. Rejection always hurts. At our core we want to be loved and accepted. Within moments I was in tears but by the time I had reached my car I was overwhelmed by faith. A voice inside of me said, "we know why this is happening." And I did. It was happening to align my life with what my heart wanted. I had been a waitress for several years. Yes, I was passionate about people. I was passionate about creating a wonderful experience for a stranger. But was serving something I wanted to do for the rest of my life? No it was not. My heart wasn't in it. And here I was holding onto something that no longer served me. This reminds me of the amazing Bruce Lee. He said, "...water can flow or it can crash. Be water my friend." Water continues to flow no matter what it comes into contact with. It becomes that shape or goes around it. We are not meant to be stagnant and when we stay in one place or hold onto something that we should let go of, we are hurting ourselves. Sometimes in our lives we choose things, people, etc. only to keep our minds occupied and looking the other way when it comes to our truth. And my truth was that I was struggling very much so with learning how to love myself.
When I say the universe will always try to get you back on the path you are meant to be on that path is and always will be the path of self love. It's true when they say that once you change your internal your external will change. The only way out is in. Your outside world is a reflection of your inside world. I could go on but I think you get the point.
So here I am. After so many signs that I chose to ignore or maybe follow for a brief time. My life abruptly changed and an environment was created, rich with self discovery. I'm trying my hardest to love myself more. I know how I want to live my life. And I'm doing my best by focusing on the tasks that I have to do to live how I want. And then I'm making sure to celebrate that I accomplished those tasks. Why? Because I deserve the fucking world! And I hope you believe you do too!
Sending you all, all the love and light in the universe.